i had to. It was proving to be difficult, seeing him online, and not being able to talk to him. Felt that a clean break was necessary for us to really move on.
His text came in the middle of sound design tutorial and totally threw me. i exclaimed so loudly that the tutor asked if there were facebook politics going on hurhur. Struggled for awhile, but decided to come clean and tell him. Any excuse would sound phony anyway and i didnt want to lie to him. sigh.
Then came a long slew of smses. It was bad timing too, 'cuz i was rushing a deadline for fyp. He wanted to talk on the phone, but i couldnt, didn't want to also because i knew how that would turn out.
I hate that he's using emotional blackmail against me. He knows that i still care. Yet he cites reasons like my work, my convenience etc as to why i chose to end things. sigh. Im trying to see it as his way of coming to terms with things. But it sure doesn't make it any easier for me. I'm torn between feeling sad and just really pissed at him.
Called xt last night and she really helped. Thanks for riding out all the emotional drama with me all these times! Don't know what i'd do without you.
Anyway. Wanted to blog about cny and vday, then this happened. Will do so soon, if i manage to get pics from my cousin. Got to spend more time with the relatives since my parents were overseas. Felt really blessed this cny. Even though im not that close to my dad's side (mom's side in japan), they are all really generous to a fault. haha and i dont mean that just in terms of red packets. They really go out of their way to be hospitable and make you feel at home. Met up with different groups of friends too and went to universal studios. i missed him during vday, but was glad for jang and yufan who spent it with me hanging out till the wee hours of the AM heh. All in all, quite a good one i'd say.
Aiight. its 12pm. Time to get the day started. :(
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